Flying the Nest

First of all, today is Veteran’s Day and so it only feels fitting to start this post off by saying thank you to all the men and women who served. Your service is invaluable and America would not be what it is today without you. For those that gave their lives, both in the literal and figurative meaning, thank you. You did a brace thing that I am not sure I could ever do.

Today I am flying the nest, going on a women’s retreat with my church. I confess, I have not left my kids overnight very often and while I know that they will be just fine and they are in the good and capable hands of their father, I still get a little nervous. 

What if they need me? Or, counter point, what if they don’t need me at all? I know it is silly, but it’s hard to turn off the part of my brain that is related to being a mom. 

But I’ve also grown a lot because earlier this year when I left them for the first time overnight ever (well first time for Allen, second time for Dominic but the first time for him was giving birth to Allen, so not sure if that counts. It was certainly not a relaxing thing lol.), I cried. And I don’t think I’m going to cry today. 

It’s just one of those things that reminds me, yet again, that parenting is as much about me growing as it is my children growing. They grow and change in little ways every day, but so do I. Parenting has changed me and I hope for the better. 

I don’t think there’s any way to be a parent and to not be changed. These little people see the world differently from you and it really forces you to see the world differently as well. I think it has made me a kinder and better person, more willing to extend grace and to see the other side. 

But even so, it is a hard thing to do. To wake up and do it again every day is hard. A lot of parenting is a daily grind. There are lots of amazing moments I love, but there’s discipline and laundry and cooking and dishes from cooking and a million little tasks that are never just one and done. And for me personally, this retreat could not have come at a better time. I’ve been a little stressed out and burnt out and so I am looking forward to a weekend of being. My suitcase has snacks and card games and coloring books and books. More than I could use in a weekend, but that’s all right. Probably be blogging my reflections on the retreat, because even though I’m traveling twice this month, I am committed. 

Mama birds raise baby birds, but even the mamas need to fly the nest sometimes.  

See this mama bird? This mama bird is ready! 

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